Last week I posted about this, and received the most touching, loving and encouraging responses by all of you – thank you, thank you! I am truly touched and amazed at the support!
So today, as I promised last week, I will start my Transformational Journal. There are SO many areas I need to change. I am easily overwhelmed, but have learned that baby steps (micro movements) are the way to go. Being that as of Friday I will be in Washington and Oregon for vacation for a week, the easiest change would be exercise (also being that I will be out of my normal elements, schedule, etc.).
I have not exercised since my little mishap with my toe on the 4th of July. It has healed up nicely now, so it will be easy-peasy to keep up with on my vacation. So excited, will be at a family reunion with oodles of lovely relatives on a lovely lake on the Olympic Peninsula of Washington! There will be lots of walks, swimming, water skiing (if I dare-it’s been 20+ years since I’ve tried!)(Eeekk!), tennis, bike rides, laughing (yes, laughing counts as abdominal w/o-don’t you agree?). I know that exercise will help elevate my mood, get me into better shape, thus improving my self image, and clear out the mental cobwebs to make room for steps 2, 3, 4, etc….
I’m hoping to venture onto step 2 of my journey as well. There will be oodles of little ones at the reunion. I’m envisioning lots of bubble blowing, arts and crafts with nature and nature treasure hunts. Sounds wonderful, I can’t wait!
Tonight I’m looking forward to a girl’s night in with my bf Deborah. My guys have already headed up north; I’ll be flying in on Friday – so currently my home is testosterone free, yippee! Okay, I’ll admit that I miss them dearly, but it’s so freeing to be able to come home and flip the TV onto any channel I choose without their moans of horror. (Yes, Food Network sends them running – away!) LOL! So tonight we will be watching “Only You” with Marisa Tomei and Robert Downey Jr., Deb gives it 2 thumbs up – a romantic comedy, count me in!
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
The Authentic Me
Yesterday I started pondering as to why I’ve been in such a funk the past few years. Sure, it does seem like a mid-life crisis…but I don’t believe in that mumbo-jumbo.
So, my kids are ALMOST grown up (16 & 18), my job is mindless and dull (not that I'm really complaining but...), my relationship with hubby is comfy & strong (20 years this October). My conclusion, I have not been honoring my “self”, my ideas, my beliefs, my values.
Do you see that little bit about me over there to the left (under that picky of me)? That is the self that I desire. The truth? I’m far from it. I haven’t been actively pursuing any of my dreams and goals.
“A goal without a plan is just a wish” ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery
I want to live within my true identity and my most authentic self. I can still put little sparks of my authentic self out in the world each day. I think of my co-worker, an Accountant. You may think, “Blah, an Accountant can’t sparkle”. But she does. She loves color and displays it in her choice of clothing, her cheerful demeanor, and her rainbow of colored pens, markers and highlighters she works with daily.
I want to ooze spunk. I want to be a quirky old lady that has lived a glorious life. Right now I’d be a boring, grumpy old lady that wouldn’t have much of a story to tell.
That’s going to change my friends. For too long I’ve suppressed the Authentic me and taken the easy road. You know the one, with as little confrontation, bending the rules and discomfort as possible.
That Authentic me is Creative, Healthy, full of Fun, Spirit, and Love.
Perhaps Tuesdays can be my weekly muse on the journey to the Authentic Me.
So, my kids are ALMOST grown up (16 & 18), my job is mindless and dull (not that I'm really complaining but...), my relationship with hubby is comfy & strong (20 years this October). My conclusion, I have not been honoring my “self”, my ideas, my beliefs, my values.
Do you see that little bit about me over there to the left (under that picky of me)? That is the self that I desire. The truth? I’m far from it. I haven’t been actively pursuing any of my dreams and goals.
“A goal without a plan is just a wish” ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery
I want to live within my true identity and my most authentic self. I can still put little sparks of my authentic self out in the world each day. I think of my co-worker, an Accountant. You may think, “Blah, an Accountant can’t sparkle”. But she does. She loves color and displays it in her choice of clothing, her cheerful demeanor, and her rainbow of colored pens, markers and highlighters she works with daily.
I want to ooze spunk. I want to be a quirky old lady that has lived a glorious life. Right now I’d be a boring, grumpy old lady that wouldn’t have much of a story to tell.
That’s going to change my friends. For too long I’ve suppressed the Authentic me and taken the easy road. You know the one, with as little confrontation, bending the rules and discomfort as possible.
That Authentic me is Creative, Healthy, full of Fun, Spirit, and Love.
Perhaps Tuesdays can be my weekly muse on the journey to the Authentic Me.
Photo Credit: mark sebastian
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